Got To Believe Life Will Slow Down At Some Point

I have failed once again at keeping up with blogging. When I do have time to blog. I like to just enjoy the piece and quite for a bit or I'm cuddled up to mike on the sofa watching a show before bed. 

But I keep thinking about blogging. And I just feel like its a calling for me.Now that school started for the older kiddo's my scheduled got even busier. The first week they was back in school, chase started seeing the chiropractor 3x's and physical therapy once a week and every other week I think he see's a occupational therapy. The Chiropractor is doing a amazing job with helping Chase with his neck. Chase was born with tordicalis(sorry that could be spelled wrong) but it means his head was probably positioned awkwardly in utro or it could be from the traumatic birth he had but his neck is use to be leaned over to right and chin to the left.So we are working with his neck to get him to hold it straight. His scoliosis will be treated with a brace for now has long as the curve does not progress and it starts to decrease. We pick up is cool blue camo brace on Friday. I am so nervous on how he reacts to having to wear the brace. I have did my share of research on bracing and surgery and every possible options. And has long as chase doesn't end up with Harrington Rods that I have I will feel like we beat the scoliosis. Because to this day I still have back problems and looking at another surgery in the near future. What doctors don't tell you about having 2 rods in your back is the maintenance of them. The chances of having to have more spinal fusing and if something goes wrong with the rods in your lifetime of having them. So with all the extra activity's going on right now me and chase have anywhere between 4 appts a week and like this week we have 7 appts this week. Between the appointments,keeping the house running, and homework with the kids every night. It take a toll on me and chase's sanity I feel. All chase wants to do with play and move around and now going everywhere like we have to and I don't blame chase for his fussy out breaks. Mommy wants some fussy outbreak time of herself!

I am so proud of how all the kids adjusted to everything that is going on. We have a pretty good routine going on with after school. With 3 kids now having homework I am usually doing homework with them for 2-3 hours. Brooke is still struggling with math this year. I don't know if its just if she isn't getting it or if its switching from saxton math to this different book. But its to the point where we both wanna pull our hair out because some of the questions or problems are simple but so hard for her where I get the point of thought "Is she just trying to get me to do her homework?"

I am still battling a long battle with my long on going health problems at the moment. Which keep interfering with my crohn's treatment. I need to find a doctor that understand my concern. Being a carrier of MRSA isn't a healthy thing and getting remicade and having this isnt a good thing too. And I cant get my port replace back in because I cant have surgery while being a MRSA carrier. So in the end I am in a lose lose situation.

   

What Am I Looking For Again.Oh Yeah Keys. DUH

Mike woke me up this morning at 7:30am and to my surprise Chase was still sleeping. For once I got ready with time to spare before me and the kids went to church.Chase was just a talking away while at church. He was trying to get anyone to talk to him.He kept looking at the pastor and making his high pitch noise. He was getting mad that he was talking and it wasn't directly to him.It was a good service once again.  When we got home,the kids were singing the songs from service.

We got home and lunch was ready for us.I had so much to do today. Never ending laundry and dishes. Mike still isn't feeling good and actually sounds worse today. So Daddy and Chase watched football.

Mike didn't even realize they was sitting alike. 

Decide to get some shopping done that was needed for the week. Got to the door and figured out I didn't have my keys in hand.I looked everywhere, Kitchen, Livingroom, Bathroom, In recliner, under the kitchen table. Mike even looked in the as he calls it the "icebox". We spent oh a good half a hour with me getting so mad because this isn't the first time I missed placed them. I went in to the room to get soaks and put them in my dresser. I felt so stupid. Mike came out with them with a big smile on his face. He kinda found it funny to find them there. My memory is bad,I'm always thinking of what I am doing next, what I need to do,what my planners are, the kids,baby,myself, mike.

I will have to admit. I think I am doing better then what a average 23 year old(soon to be 24 ehhh) with 3 kids and a baby + one teenager on the weekends.I know Mike is appreciated of me, I knew what I was getting in to( well not with chase,that was a big surprise!)when I fell in love with mike. and chase was the best surprise out of it(and will be the only surprise). God won't give me more then what I can handle. How I see it,I couldnt birth the family I always wanted, I wanted kids just not one but 2-3. God granted me that,plus I got to carry one.Sorry I'm rambling on and on!

Been thinking what I want to do next with my life lately and  I am looking in to going to school. Thinking some online classes. I want a to be able to have something behind me that will be able for me to be qualified for a job that I can physically handle. With Crohn's I cant really work at a store or anything where I am no my feet 6 hours at a time and I need to be able to take frequent short breaks. But I wanna be able to help out a little more, by financially helping my family. Hmmmm, maybe a professional blogger? Yeah right sure.

I was so surprised by the response I got on facebook yesterday. I didn't really think my friends read this. I even talk to family and they refer to things I have blogged about. Thank you all for the positive feedback!      

"I Don't Remember This House,Are We There Yet?

I must of been making some funny faces while I was sleeping this morning because I woke up with Chase laughing at me. He was talking and smiling then all of a sudden it was FEED ME NOW again. After feeding him it was our morning nap. Woke up and didn't even heard the kids come home. So looked in the bedrooms and they was quietly watching t.v. They know I need my extra sleep of I am grumpy.

So after cleaning the kitchen and doing the lunch routine. We loaded up the SUV and head off to swim. While in town all I heard out of John was "Are we there yet,I don't remember this house are we there yet?"We went to a indoor pool that was in a town over from us. When we got there I found my tot wet from a bottle that leaked. I was just like "why my luck".The kids got in the swimming suits. And they was off to play and splash.

John

 

Brooke

Cady

Dar

Chase was for the most part a happy baby. He wanted a lot of attention today. He was very vocal. He would yell not cry for ya. Then once you came to him he wanted to just smile and talk your ear off. I guess he had something important to tell you but just couldn't understand him tee hee.

Chase and his sock monkey that Grandma B got him.

Got the little one to sleep now, in my arms and I'm going to go take me something for my ankle. Its bugged me enough today that I got my boot out.Which I hate with a passion.

I Dont Believe There Is Really 24Hrs In A Day

I needed nothing more then just peace yesterday. NOPE. To much to ask for. Spent 2 hours cleaning the floor because of a nasty mess that was made. I bleached and bleached then felt like taking a bleach bath. Yesterday seemed like it was only 4 hours in a day. It was like blink and it was gone. But got well somewhat of alot done. Made a roast for dinner,Bleached the floor and did some re organizing of the kitchen. Ran to wal mart while mike was home for lunch. Did a load of cloths. Kids came home and Ashley came over. There is no way to do anything with having company over plus the kids home.The kiddos act different with people over its like it gets them out of their routine. I use to be the same way...I think. Once the kids went to their moms. I was still none stop busy trying to pick up and vacuum when chase allowed.

Chase is getting so big its unbelievable.You cant really tell he was a preemie any more at all. Any where I go I have people asking if any results on his EEG.It touches me to know so many people care about the lil guy. But still no results. I am going to try and call them today to see if the doctors office is even open today being veterans days.

We got a semi busy weekend a head of us...And I still gotta get moving today. I know this blogs is once again a day late...but at least I get it done.

Where Did This Day Go?

What a ugly day out.Chase and I didnt even get dressed.We stayed home all day and surprisingly mike came home around noonish. We had a pretty busy day around the house and getting stuff we needed and getting stuff done around the house.

Mike came home with a pack and play and a ecersaucer for chase. Which Chase loves both. Even the older kids play with the ecersaucer with him. He can't play with the toys that are attached to it but he loves to watch the kids play with them for him. I love watching the kids interact with chase and how they can light up Chases face too.Talking about Chase's face oh my has he got some cheeks.He is starting to get hamster cheeks I call it. I am so glad he is gaining weight.

We started a Chore Chart for the kids this today. The little thing that you keep having to remind kids.

• Put cloths up
• Put dirty cloths in hamper 
• Clean your spot off at the table
• Hang towel
• Make bed
• Pick up room
• And for a bonus star is good behavior=No talking back,No beating each other up,No begging,No bugging each other.List goes on...More days then few they are good. But sometimes kids have their days where there just not in to behaving and they know what there doing but test you or don't care. But its mostly the beginning of the week or when their fathers in the fields and they test me or miss him and it gets to them.It gets to me and I'm not just feeling right when mikes in the fields. Its difficult. But its finally over for this year yaya!

This weekend I need some ME time. I need to do something for myself. I feel selfish for saying this. But I need a mommy break. A few hours just to be relieve some stress and tension. I hate saying that. I am not talking about going to a bar or partying. I was never in the bar scene anyways.I'm talking about may like going to the coffee shop having a latte with a friend. Or would go for a walk but its to darn cold. Something relaxing.

Chase is sleeping I think i am going to pick the living room up and catch some ZZzz's myself. My medication just kicked in for my back and it finally doesn't hurt and isn't tight.

I Just Want A Calm Week.

Once again I am a day late for my blog, I apologize.Yesterday was busy with chase wanting to be held a lot and waking up every 20 minutes wanting held and butt patted to sleep.With the tested he had today,I was worried sick about what the results would be. I will address more about the test in today's blog(this is yesterdays blog).

Its like every week its a appointment or two.I just want a calm week. No appointments and the kids not trash to house.I got enough to clean just picking up after my self.Maybe its time to get a chore chart started then maybe this house can run in a orderly fashion. That's what I am going to start.A chore chart.

Well off to clean the house..I hope to get today's blog posted tonight.